I’m in Hawaii, on the Big Island. I came here on a 10-day retreat and wound up staying longer. How long, I don’t know. I’m working out the details right now, but it feels right to me to stay, and I can’t really explain it other than to say I feel at home here.
During my first week in Na’alehu, a small town near the southern tip of the island, I met two people at the farmer’s market who had relocated to Hawaii after coming to visit – one from Canada and one from California. They said they could never imagine moving back to the Mainland.
I’m not at that point yet and don’t know if that will happen to me, too…But I understand the pull very well now. I understand that something in my body RESPONDS to this place as though I were always meant to be here, and finally found it.
I never finished my blog post series about the mudras, because I stopped using them in such a conscious way – only “as needed,” if you will. Which is the way I always use Jin Shin Jyutsu self-help. Some people may benefit from regular, disciplined practice of particular flows at particular times, and that is wonderful. I’m an “as needed” practitioner, and my need just happens to arise every day, usually between 1 and 3am.
Not much has changed about my self-help practice other than the fact that I’m now doing it Hawaii, which is in a different time zone, to which I had to adjust. Otherwise, I’m still working on my 1st and 2nd and 6th depths, every day, all the time, each night when I wake up between 1 and 3 involuntarily.
And the sequence of flows I use is always intuitively guided, and it always ends with Umbilicus Flow on left or right side. Always. I love that flow so much, because when I’m finished with the hour or so of practice, it’s a delicious way to feel like a baby in the Mother’s arms. That’s the best way I can describe it.
And that’s the way Hawaii feels to me right now – like a Mother. Like I am literally living inside of her right now, healing, and re-learning how to be a human being.
It is the strangest thing I have ever experienced, but also the best.
I don’t know how long this healing period and rebirthing will last. I literally have no idea what Divine Will has in mind for me right now, but I trust so much that the Divine Mother loves me. THAT I know for sure, and I want everybody in the world to know how it feels to be this wrapped in safety. It is truly miraculous. Maybe not everybody needs it the way I did and do, because I’ve struggled with that kind of trust my whole life.
All I know is that I’m grateful to be experiencing it now, as if all of the millions of Umbilicus Flows I’ve practiced have led me right to where I needed to be: the Cosmic Mother’s birthplace.