Building a new life in Hawaii is not as easy as it might appear (based on U.S. media about Hawaii).

The sharks (challenges) of life are everywhere. The lifeforce energy is so powerful here that everything seems to be exaggerated.

Any projects I was working on before I moved here have been blown up and magnified so that they are right up in my face every day, all the time. But as Elizabeth Gilbert said about a huge, recent life change: sometimes you have to pray for things to get worse instead of better in order to get to the other side of the challenge.

That’s what I’m praying right now, every day, so my Jin Shin Jyutsu self-help has never been more important to me, especially holding my index finger (harmonizes fear)!

I am someone who has always struggled with panic and fear. It’s just the way I came into the world, but I now have a huge toolbox from which to choose a skill that helps me ground, center, and return to my true self, where I feel at home again.

Still waking up at some point during the night with panic and shortness of breath and practicing JSJ for 30 minutes to an hour, after which I always go back to sleep (unless the alarm is about to go off!) Still using lung, large intestine, stomach, spleen, bladder, 1, 2, 5/6/7/8, breathing, and umbilicus flows, in some combination during each session.

Safety Energy Lock 9 at the base of the shoulder blades came into the universe meaning “end of a cycle is beginning of another; every end is seed of a fresh beginning, the basis of foundation,” according to Mary. 9 is also the number of the 2nd Depth, which is about grief and attachment. When I look at this Mano card I pulled tonight, I wonder about the connection between 9 and Shark…

The card says that it is about leadership under treacherous conditions. Leadership requires the ability to be courageous and let go of one’s mistakes and the mistakes of others without holding onto the past. Grieving and letting go of the past is the best way to stand in the power of the present and take on the leadership role that we are called to.

I’m wondering if there is a connection between fear and leadership, as well, because leaders must know what fear is like in order to rise up and help others who feel afraid and need encouragement to keep walking on their paths.

I’m tying everything together here. 🙂 When I feel fear, and yet I’m able to harmonize it and come back into rhythm with the universe, I can lead more strongly and powerfully because I can help those around me rise to the occasion by example.

Thank you, Mary, for your Physiophilosophy that lets me understand my life through the lens of the Cosmos!